I'm sorry I've left you hanging for the last two weeks. Initially, I wasn't in a position to tell you what was happening. Then when I could, I still hadn't processed it enough to know what to say. I'm still not sure, but I'm gonna give it a shot.
About a month ago, my boss told us that there would be a forced headcount reduction across our company. At the time, we weren't sure if our team would be impacted. However, the hives that I broke out into that night told a different story. I really just felt like it was gonna be me. Then two weeks ago, I got the individual call from my boss. Effective June 30, I will no longer be working for the company that has employed me for the last 15+ years.
I've gone through a myriad of emotions. Sometimes I would rather just sleep...cause when I am sleeping, this isn't really happening. I go through moments where not a thing has changed and moments where I am so down I'm not sure if it is possible for even more tears to continue to flow.
Things have changed so much since I last looked for a job. Seriously...the last job I applied for was a hand written application and I actually got to shake some one's hand. I've probably applied for about 15 or so jobs and been rejected for 1/3 of those already. I can't start over at an entry level job. I'm overqualified and need more money than entry level has to offer. But my degree is in elementary education and I work in the business field.
Tony and I have discussed where cuts will be made if it comes to that. I have a month and half to hopefully find something so I can walk out of this job and right into the next one. Pray that my job search will be swift and I will find something that makes me happy! Cause if I really want to be honest, I haven't been happy in this job for about the last 4'ish years. Maybe this is the swift kick in the butt that I need to make a change.
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